Tuesday, November 10, 2009

AHHHHHH!!!!!

Since my last blog my life has been a crazy whirlwind of stress. As of this weekend I am now living with katrina and her family to be there full time and take care of them. She is out of the hospital but still very sick and now both of her young boys have been diagnosed with celiac disease. My boyfriend and his daughter are also there with us and I think this whole thing has seriously damaged our relationship. He wants to spend more time with me but im always busy with work, school, dinner, baths, homework, laundry etc and he doesnt sem to understand our position right now is temporary and weve been fighting alot. i dont feel close to him anymore and I hate it because I really do love him but i find myself getting irriated with every thing he does and says. We havent been out of the house in 3 weeks whcih is also crazy and i havent had a minute of quietness to myself since i dont remember and i miss my own bed and family.. and closet and shower... and my car which nathan has taken full possession of. I paid my car off finally and was going to trade it in but i gave it to him to drive temporaily while i pay katrinas 400 dollar car payment for a hummer that sucks up gas and is a fortune to drive. Im not mad im helping everyone they all need it but i guess im just going a litttle crazy and im not sure what to do. I feel like a bad friend, girlfriend, sister, daughter etc because i havent seen anyone and havent had time to text or return calls and i think im slipping in school need a little strength and hope to get through it all but im runnin on empty

1 comment:

  1. What a difficult situation to be in. You are so giving of yourself that you are running yourself ragged. I hope your family and boyfriend will be more supportive of what you are doing. Things will work out--maybe not the way you expect--but for the best. Hang in there. And try to find a few minutes for yourself (even if you have to lock yourself in the bathroom!).

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