This week a dear friend of the family and a lady i babysit for was rushed to the hospital on Thursday. She recently found she is allergic to wheat and gluten and thursday her body shut down and went in to seizure mode. I have been staying with her 3 boys who are 5, 8, and 15 and its becoming a real wake up call into the world of mom. Shes having a very hard time and so are her boys, they have a very close relationship and its been very diffucult to keep them calm. Theyve been up most nights crying and it seems the more i let them talk to her the more upset they get. I have lots of papers due, homework, 2 jobs and making sure i stay in contact with their school as well as katrina. Been pretty hard and i think she will be there over the weekend. My boyfriend has been a big help and stayed there with me, i couldnt do it without him. Of course with him comes his 3 year old daughter but whats one more right.. lol been chaos but im trying to manage..

CRAZY PSYCHO!

This past week has been EXTREMELY STRESSFUL. My boyfriend has lived with a tyrant mother who believes she is not only god but a mother instead of a grandmother. She wants Nathan to be completely dependent on her and not fend for himself therefore never leave her. I have been nothing but nice to this woman, tlked for hours, done favors for her, smiled when i knew she was wrong etc. But she feels threatened by me because i am very independent, I take care of myself, pay for all my own things, work two jobs, go to school and have goals and plans to reach them. Since Nathan has been dating me he has gotten two new jobs one being a networking job with IBM and Dell and is going back to school to get his degree. His mom has gotten worse and wrse and has created a VERY UNSTABLE environment for her three year old grandaughter who is kept up all night listening to her Grandma SCREAMING and yelling obsence horrible things into the late hours of the night. Finally nathan decided to get out and realized they took the fuse from his car. I had to go pick him up on saunday and he is now living with me along with his daughter in my bedroom. Things are quite crowded and I seem very stressed but I am glad he got out and can be on a better path to saving his little girl.

This was the first weekend we didnt have my boyfriend daughter. He dropped her off at her mothers house thursday night and she didnt come back until Sunday. It was very strange without her. So quiet and wierd without the responsibility of keeping eye on a 2.. now 3 year old. We finally got some us time and went to see a movie friday night. Funny thing is we went in to see Love Happens andd when we walked out we ended up walking right into Couples Retreat lol double movie and a great time....such a late night tho. On Saturday I helped a former teaher paint a room in her new house and then spent some much needed time with my family for my grandmas 75th birthday. On sunday i helped Nathan write his resume for an IT job with Dell which he got today and spent the rest of the day relaxing. It was a much needed weekend and i enjoyed every minute of it.

Today on the way to school i was behind a van which had a very unusual eye catching bumper sticker which stated...

"My child got your honor student pregnant"

Now at first this may seem funny and I admit I laughed and found it quite humorous. But then i thought.. there's no wonder why our society is the way it is. Is it acceptable to poke fun at situations that really aren't to funny, maybe your just making light o the situation but really we are playing down a what has become a very common situation, but then wonder why so many families are poor due to droping out of school to have a child, or why so many children need counseling when mom and dad split up because they simply got together for the childs sake. I guess i may be bias considering i deal with this on a daily basis at the law firm but after laughing i looked at a bigger picture and became alittle frustrated... any thoughts?

Start my job tomorrow at hollywood tan. Im pretty excited but alittle nervous too. Im getting alittle frustrated with life and being a teenager. Im ready to move out, get my own place and be completely self sufficient. I dont mind my family but im sick of taking care of the house and my brothers each week and getting no help. Id love to fast forward 5 years to where I might be married have kids or even just my own house. I am only 600 dollars from paying off my car and soon ill be able to save up like I use to before I bought my car. With two jobs life might be hectic but im ready to start my future :)